The past few days I’ve been re-watching episodes of The Guild. If you’ve never really played an MMORPG (mass multi-player online role playing game), then I’m not sure how much you’ll be able to relate to the story…but check it out anyway! Also, I’m not sure how much you will relate to me in this in the post. However, it’s been weighing on my mind and I feel a need to blog about it.
When I first got introduced to RPGs (role-playing games), I was hooked. This began with Final Fantasy. I moved on to MMORPGs with Ultima Online (UO). Once I got a full-time job and college came into my life, I stopped gaming altogether for a while. Later, after college and when I had a comfortable income as a teacher, I was yearning for something to do on my down time. My friends introduced me to Everquest II and soon I was losing 20-30 hours/week to the game.
I created my own character, leveled and geared her up, and joined a guild that did some light group work. I soon got bored of that and moved up to a guild that raided once or twice a week. After acquiring a few pieces of gear, the guild fell apart. So, I looked into an even more challenging guild. I put in an application, went through the trial period, and became a full-time raiding guild member. Raids were three days a week plus additional questing and x2 events on nights off. I even decided to make an alt character, which I power-leveled with the help of my now ex, and soon she became an alt for guild raids. So, if it isn’t obvious to you, Everquest 2 was a fairly important part of my life.
When I came to Korea, I knew I’d have to cut down my raiding from 3 nights a week to 2 nights week (due to the time difference). However, they changed their raid days and so I was left to being able to raid only once a week…my Saturday morning. It wasn’t really working out for me and I ultimately decided to quit (at least for a short while).
Anyway, a few days after I announced it to my guild, I logged back into my character. All of my characters’ gold was gone. I was sooo pissed. I must have given a guild member my password months prior to this and they must have kept it. I went EMO…I destroyed or sold all my characters’ belongings, gear…anything and everything of value. EVERYTHING. I stopped my monthly subscription and wiped the game off my computer. I was hurt and didn’t think I’d ever want to play again.
Over a year later, and I’m missing it. I miss being able to absorb myself into a computer game. I miss connecting to people through the internet: arguments, friendships, and everything in between. Online gaming and being in a guild brings people together because you see/talk to other guildies at least 15 hours/week (this can be good and bad). I was on really good terms with my guild leader and I told him what happened (right before I took the game off my comp). He still has me as an active member on their website and he told me I could join/reapply whenever I came back to the game.
Anyway, I don’t know if I will get back into gaming or if I would even play EQ2 again. I can’t figure out if I’m missing the actual act of gaming and all that it entails…or if it’s that I’m missing that time of my life. All I know is that I will lose a lot of time if I DO get back into the gaming world.