End of the Year Reflection

Well, I just realized that 2010 is almost over.  I know there are still a few more days left, but I don’t foresee anything monumental happening in the next 3 days.  I also haven’t had this blog for a full year either.  Anyway, enough with semantics.

I’ve been on my quest for ‘happiness’ for a few years now.  “Searching for Happiness” was actually my name on my myspace account (which I no longer have) back in 2008.  Two years have come and gone since then–crazy.  Well, back in 2008 I was in a job/living situation that made me feel utterly alone and unhappy.  I literally dreaded work 90% of the time. I remember the days when I was going to work and trying not to cry. Two reasons for this: (1) I hate crying and (2) it was the knowledge that I would have to drag myself through yet another painful day of work.  This is when I started my search for happiness.

I decided a change of scenery might cheer me up.  I was fortunate and landed another job away from my prior job.  Although my life improved (I no longer hated work), I knew I wasn’t happy.  I needed to get out of the country.  I needed to escape the place where my friends were superficial and few and far between.  I needed to find a new direction in my life.  So, I jumped at the opportunity to work in Korea.

Now I’m in Korea.  Many of things about my life have changed; it’s definitely a new experience.  I love experiencing the culture here and I enjoy the struggle of learning the language.  Korea is also an awesome place to shop and to visit historic sites.  The public transportation system is typically amazing (granted with a few inconveniences but it’s VASTLY better than in the states).  I now have different circles of friends and I go out every weekend.  I drink and go to clubs way more than I ever did in the states (which is pretty easy to do considering I rarely if ever went out).  I eat food I’ve never eaten before (and I enjoy most of it).  I also eat more vegetables. (No I don’t eat a lot of vegetables–in fact I still don’t like them; it’s just way more than my old once-a-week-if-that intake I had in the states). In many ways, things are a lot better and I feel happier as a whole.

Some things never change though.  I realize that although the people I hang out with here are awesome and I have blast hanging out with them–my time with them is limited to Korea.  I doubt that I’ll see them when the contract ends, but that’s okay.  I know that if we do meet up later in life, we’ll still go out for another round of drinks and have a great time.  Also, the type of work I’m doing is not much different: I’m still teaching (granted in a slightly different way).  I still feel that a lot of what I do in the classroom really doesn’t matter…actually I might feel that more-so here.  Living alone is nothing new.  I still eat like crap: junk food, meat, and ramen all the way!  So in a lot of ways I’m still at square one.

Teacher

I am still a teacher…

In fact, I was hoping to come to Korea to have time to figure out what it is I want to do with my life.  I am still working towards the general direction of foreign affairs.  However, my exact steps towards this goal are not defined as of yet.  All I know is that it’s probably too late to apply for grad school (seeing as the deadline is in 2 weeks and I still don’t have a Statement of Purpose written).  Therefore, I still need to figure out with I’m going to do in the meantime.  I’m leaning towards staying another year in Korea, but I’m also open to other countries.  I don’t think I’m ready to go back to the states; in fact I know I’m not.

I guess, to sum it all up: my New Years Resolution for 2011 is to really sit down with myself and figure out–where next?

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